Showing posts with label Philosophy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Philosophy. Show all posts

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Sleeping in Church

Today is Sunday. For those of us who choose to attend an organized church service each week, this will be familiar territory. I never try to defend our occasional lack of spirituality to those who don't believe as we do, because we do have our moments. While we sometimes judge our non-believing friends for their excesses of the flesh, remember, that's all they know. Not only that, we have the same carnal nature alive and well within us. The difference is we have accepted the sacrifice of Jesus Christ and have his Holy Spirit living within that spiritual segment of our being. The problem is we also have the free will to listen to and obey the spiritual urgings, or in rebellion ignore them and revert to our carnal urges. This makes us appear hypocritical in our actions when measured against our words. When non-believers are watching (and they are), we appear insincere. It is a problem that has affected believers since the beginning. On the other hand, when we listen to God's spiritual urgings and instructions, we can experience that fellowship with God that causes us to have a peace that passes all understanding. All believers and non-believers alike have a physical segment - the active body that people see and interact with, a mental segment - where we store and process all the genetic knowledge, emotion, education, prejudice, and results of interaction with others, and a spiritual segment - where the Spirit of God dwells when we believe. The mental and spiritual segments are separated by a "will switch" and can be accessed by an individual's choice. Non-believers have the same spiritual segment, but it is not an active part of their thought process until they believe. I explain this so that those reading who do not believe can understand our occasional wanderings. A hymn writer penned a line in an old hymn that said, "prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love, here's my heart Lord take and seal it...." So, on some Sundays believers may walk into the church service with less than adequate spiritual preparation, and ministers may be having a "bad hair day". This may lead to looking around at others for some carnal entertainment, or perhaps nodding off when we should be listening. You will know what my mood was on the Sunday that I penned this little poem.

NOT SO SPIRITUAL STRUGGLE

Today in church
my foot went to sleep.
The sermon was long
and not real deep.
The rest of me was struggling too,
but only my foot went to sleep.

So since we are all God's creations, let's not judge. Please tolerate our inconsistencies, and we will pray that someday you will believe and understand the peace that we know when we are spiritually centered. I hope all of you have a great Sunday. We never lose our Spiritual relationship with God, but disobedience can cause us to lose fellowship. Pappy

Character is what you have left when you've lost everything you can lose. - Evan Esar

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Tuesday Rerun

This story was originally posted in February of this year when my readership was composed mostly of family members and a few friends. It is a tale of growing up in an era when things moved slower, and people were satisfied with a lot less, and knowing everything going on in the world was not a possibility. I hope you can relate.

THE LAWSON BOYS

Salty damp air smelling of pine, honeysuckle, and magnolia, surrounded me most of the time. Huge live oak trees with gray ornaments of Spanish moss shaded my world. Every road seemed long. Trips in our old blue Ford coupe seemed to go on endlessly. My sister and I would lie in the rear floorboard sweating, and listening to other cars zooming past on the two-lane highway.
It was 1952 and I was five years old. I planted my feet in the sandy soil of coastal Mississippi. Our wooden frame house was gray. It seemed large at the time, but I later discovered it was very small. We had no television or air conditioning, so we played outside most of the time. When it got dark, our mother would call us inside.
Johnny and Jimmy Myers lived next door. They were older. They pretended to like me when I brought them my dad’s tools or something to eat, but at other times they pummeled and harassed me until I left crying. My best friend, David Harper and his older brothers lived down the street. He was my age. His two older brothers were Thomas and Boogie. John Henry Jones lived next door to David. He was also our age. David, John Henry, and I played together most of the time. The older guys occasionally let us join them when they needed someone to do something stupid or dangerous. They knew we would do anything they asked to show we were worthy.
The sandy ruts we called a road ended a short distance beyond my house at a pasture enclosed by a barbed wire fence. If you walked the other direction on our street you would run into pavement just before you got to town. We occasionally shuffled to town on our summer toughened bare feet to get some treat from the grocery store, but most of our activities took place between John Henry’s house and the woods at the back of the pasture.
The woods were dark and swampy. The creeks and ditches there had black water in them. Slimy things slithered beneath the surface. Occasionally the older boys would challenge us to wade into the black water and scoop out some wriggling creature.
John Henry, David and I occasionally went to the switching yard at the railway station near town. We would walk along side the blistering hot metal rails, and pick up loose spikes. John Henry said it was our “doody” to turn them in. I guess, with a name like John Henry, he felt an obligation to the railroad. He was too small to drive spikes, so I suppose picking up loose ones was the next best thing. In the switchyard there were huge black steam engines that hissed and chugged, covering themselves in billowing clouds of white. We were a little afraid of everything.
Afraid the bull or the cows in the pasture would chase us if we got too close. Noises in the woods made us run for home with goose bumps on our arms. And, we were always afraid that we would somehow get stuck on the railroad track when the train was coming. But, more than all this, we feared the Lawson boys.
We didn’t know where they lived or how they ever found the pasture at the end of our road, but they did.
The older boys said they weren’t afraid of them, but we all made preparations to fight them off if they ever decided to cross into our territory.
The Lawson boys came to the pasture and stared at us across the barbed wire fence. They were dirty and their clothes were ragged. Their red hair was long and curly. We all had short hair. They had real big freckles. I had never seen them at school. Sometimes four would show up, but at other times five came. They were all different sizes, but we could tell by looking they were kin. They never smiled. We stayed in the road, and they stayed in the pasture.
My mother, who told us who they were, said their parents hung out in Honky Tonks. I didn’t know what that was, but mother said never to go near them.
I asked Thomas Harper what Honky Tonks were and he said that he would show me. Thomas and Boogie took David and me on the center bars of their bicycles and pedaled us by a couple.
They were buildings with brightly painted metal signs on them. The signs had words on them like “J-A-X”, and “P-A-B-S-T”. The ground around them was covered in crushed oyster shells. The doors were open and loud music blared all the way to the street. We could see people sitting at tables. The Honky Tonks were all lined up in a row across the street from the railroad tracks.
I hoped that my mother wouldn’t see me, or even hear that I had been there. I also hoped that we didn’t run into the Lawson boys or their parents.
The older boys came up with a plan to build two tree houses. They weren’t really houses, just boards nailed between two limbs high up in a big tree. We nailed flat short boards to the tree trunk to make a ladder. The boards were just a little too far apart for my short legs. I was scared when I climbed up to the platform. I was scared when I got there, and I was scared as I inched my way back down.
The Myers had a big tree in their yard, and there was another one at the end of the road. The branches of the one at the end of the road hung over the pasture fence. Thomas and Boogie said we should build one tree house in each tree.
The plan was to stock the slanted platforms with rocks and sticks. The older guys said that David, John Henry, and I should hide in the tree house at the end of the road. When the Lawson boys showed up, the older boys said they would lure them onto the road where we could shower them with rocks and sticks.
Johnny, Jimmy, Thomas and Boogie would then retreat to the other tree house and hold them off from there.
My fear was we would run out of ammunition and the Lawson boys would climb into our tree while the older guys were still in their tree, too far away to rescue us. I imagined being captured by them, beaten up, and taken to their house. I wondered what would happen when their parents came home from the Honky Tonks.
We built the tree houses, stocked them as planned, and spent many watchful hours waiting for the showdown. I had nightmares about it.
Then one day they came back. John Henry saw them first and sounded the alarm. David and I climbed into the tree house at the end of the road. John Henry soon followed. The older boys stood their ground in the middle of the street. When the Lawsons neared the fence, Johnny Myers called out and told them to come over. He said he had something to show them. They crossed the fence and walked under our tree house. The older boys turned and ran toward the Myers house just as we had planned. The Lawsons just stood in the road wondering what was going on. John Henry, David, and I unloaded on them with a shower of rocks.
Our aim was good and the Lawson boys took a pelting. They scurried for the fence and ran back into the pasture. We climbed down and followed the older boys who had seen that we had stopped the invaders at the first tree and were now giving chase. We crossed the barbed wire fence of the pasture and ran whooping behind our retreating foe. Fortunately, no cows were out that day. We chased the Lawsons until they disappeared into the trees on the opposite side of the field. We all slowed down when we got to there. Moving slowly from tree to tree, we caught sight of the small plywood house that was covered in black tar paper. The weeds grew tall right up to it. We could hear several kids crying. Creeping closer, we could see the house better. Several skinny girls with red hair and ragged dresses were looking at bumps on the heads of a couple of the boys who had crossed our fence. The yard was full of old junk, a rusted car, a broken washing machine, a metal barrel full of beer cans, and two old stained mattresses. The inside of the house was dark. I knew I wouldn’t want to live there. We all decided that we should go home.
I didn’t feel good. I was sorry for them now that I knew where they lived. Nobody felt good about what we had done, but no one said much about it. The older guys never told us how bravely we fought. If the Lawsons had ever come back, we would have treated them differently. They never did.
I grew older, and sometimes wondered how we could have been so cruel. We were just afraid, and like most kids, unable to see how our actions would affect others. Many more childhood episodes molded my character. But, our battle with the skinny, red headed, Lawson boys was the first one where I came to a conclusion about the consequences of my actions without being told by a grownup.
I moved away from my friends shortly after our encounter with the Lawsons, and did not return until I was an adult. The trees were much older, but didn’t seem nearly as big as I remembered them. The bark on their trunks had grown around the boards that we once used as ladders. The road was short, and our house was very small. I imagined that the Lawsons had probably never left, and might be in some nearby Honky Tonk.


He attacked everything in life with a mix of extraordinary genius and naive incompetence, and it was often difficult to tell which was which. -
Douglas Adams

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Looking for that Pot of Gold?

I don't know how many times I've tried to grab the brass ring on the Merry-Go-Round and missed. I've played the lottery. I've prayed the highly spiritual prayer, "Lord just let me see those six numbers today, and I promise I'll tithe my winnings." I've tried to get excited about interactive marketing opportunities, and I've invested with the best money managers my money can buy. I still abide in the middle of the pack. I've read all the inspirational books and repeated the success mantras, but somehow I still am just an ordinary middle classed citizen of these great United States of America. The older I get, the more I realize I did get the brass ring. I read stories of those who have amassed great wealth, and for many it has been a big disappointment. Their lives have been wrecked. The pot at the end of the rainbow is just what you see in the picture above. I have a wonderful wife, children, and grandchildren. I live in a comfortable home, and all my needs are met. I still have my health, and my mind is still operating at near mediocre levels. I am at peace spiritually, and I live in the greatest country on the face of the Earth. I wrote a poem to try and describe the problem with our perceptions, and real life. I hope you enjoy it.


Little Pleasures

We plan.
We work.
We save.
We dream.
But, life is seldom as it seems.

A germ,
a gene,
a wayward act
can throw perceptions off their track.

A hug,
a kiss,
a tender word
can let us know we’re not alone.

Life is life.
So, on we go
not so sure of what’s in store.
But, fearing less that great unknown.
Enjoying “little” more.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Bloom where you're planted

First of all I'm thankful I'm not working in the oil field anymore. Someone sent me this photo with the caption "Storm in a west Texas oilfield", I don't know about its authenticity, but I'm glad I wasn't there. I worked in a number of jobs throughout my adult life, and most had some level of danger involved. I think I developed a need for an adrenaline rush, and when I don't get one I feel cheated. I have been retired for over five years now and I am weaning myself, and accepting the minimalist version through vicarious mental participation. I do recall those days of yesteryear, and am relieved I don't have to live them again. After six years in law enforcement, I got fed up with some of the administrative wrangling that interfered with the day to day job of crime fighting and quit. I got a job teaching Law Enforcement in college and went back to University and got an advanced degree. I taught for about five years before I realized we were near enough to poverty to qualify for government assistance and decided to seek more lucrative employment. The oil field was booming. They were paying good money for folks with degrees who wanted to train as field supervisors, so I signed up. They said we would start at the bottom and work our way up. We were being paid for our educations, but we needed to learn the job from the inside out. The first day I painted the floor of the shop. I thought to myself they were literal in their approach. I hustled pipe, drove semi-trucks, stayed up for days, and was filthy most of the time. I did not have one ounce of fat on my frame. The guys I was training to supervise loved to get one over on the six month wonders with the college degrees. They nicknamed me, "the professor." We linked strings of pipe together with eared couplings at the end of each ten foot joint using a four pound sledge hammer to tighten the connection. "Righty tighty, lefty loosey." When I was too tired to remember the jingle, I would sometimes pound the ear in the wrong direction as we broke down the string. Some grinning hand would always come by with advice like, "It ain't gonna get any tighter professor." I recall one night in January when the temperature was well below freezing and sleet covered every exposed surface, I stood on top of a pump truck and pumped heavy mud down a hole to keep it from blowing. Most of the crew was down with the flu and I was having to pull extra shifts to get the job finished. There in the Mississippi darkness I wondered about all the hours I put in on my advanced degree in Psychology and how it would help me figure out why I was covered with ice and freezing to death. Shortly after that night, God took pity on me and the bottom fell out of the oil industry. I immediately got back into law enforcement and finished my career there. I never complained about the hours, the discomfort, or anything else. I experienced worse and was glad to be where I was. Have a great week.

The secret of eternal youth is arrested development. - Alice Roosevelt Longworth

Friday, April 11, 2008

Fragmented Flummery

Whew! If you are a regular on this site, then you probably participated in Sky Watch Friday. The mad hatter, Wom Tigley, over in the British Isles, is the master of ceremonies. So, many of us on this side of the pond, post on Thursday (after six) because of the time difference - We don't want to be late to the party. If you are posting today no problem. I am a second week expert in this internet, sky photo, Mardi Gras, so don't feel like you are behind. Today, I thought I would post something Western - but with a calm aura. I am wanting calm today. This little fawn (in Texas I'm told) came out to play with his cousins, the horses. They didn't seem to mind and he was later reunited with his mom. Lots of wisdom for us in this picture. All day yesterday was spent in preparation and anticipation of my world wide trip last evening. My ADHD will probably prevent me from ever again reaching the level of participation that I did last night. I stopped counting in the sixties, the number of different blogs I visited. The Hank Snow tune, "I've Been Everywhere," comes to mind. Some locales I was unsure of because the blog was written in a language I was unfamiliar with. I know I visited numerous places in the United States, Canada, British Isles, Australia, Norway, Denmark, Estonia, Indonesia, Singapore, Portugal, and Belgium. I also got commenters from many of these locations. I was trying to make it through the entire list, but every time I went back to the list, it had increased by four or five participants. So, today my mind is fragmented and full of flummery.

I just want to go outside and sip a nice hot cup of coffee in my old tree swing and ponder life as a whole. My mind is always working. Why would people put themselves through an exercise like this? Well, no matter where we are, we are all God's creatures and we are curious about others and how they live out their lives. Early tribes created totem poles to tell the historical stories of their clans, but communication was limited and sometimes they passed from the scene before they passed their story on orally. Today, when we find these treasures, we must imagine what they were trying to tell us. All I have to do is go to your blog site, look at your offerings there, ask some questions, and I have some idea of how we are related. Have a great weekend and come by often for a visit.

Stake Your Totem

Chop the tree.
Carve the wood.
Tell the story of your clan.

Stake your totem
on the seashore
hoping all the world will see.

Who will be left
when others pass
to pass the epic on?

Unlock the past
without a key?

Learned men
will cogitate,
extrapolate, pontificate,
but in the end they speculate.

Dennis Price

In every work of genius we recognize our own rejected thoughts; they come back to us with a certain alienated majesty. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Writing and Winding Roads


I am burning material for this blog at a tremendous rate. I will be forced very soon to write new material. Sometimes writing is as easy as putting together a cake mix, but at other times it is an arduous project. Very few works are ready on first draft. Perhaps you read my blog early in the morning and notice a word or two misspelled. If you read it after I've had two or more cups of coffee, you may notice I've re-posted with corrections. Some works require numerous re-writes. If you read the blog on a regular basis, but don't know how to use the comment section, just send me an e-mail and suggest topics you might like to see covered. I have opened my comment section to receive annonymous submissions also.


I love the thought of being a travelling singer in the old style, riding trains with a battered guitar case and gathering wool for new songs. I have written a few songs with a Woodie Guthrie, or Jimmy Rogers flavor. I like singing some of the old train songs about hobos and camps full of hard life stories. I said I loved the thought of.... I actually like my big king sized bed with the pillow top mattress, bathing, and meals on a regular basis. Brother Dave Gardner, preacher turned comedian, who made party records back in the Sixties used to say there was only one thing better than doing it and that was thinking about it - Because you could think about a whole lot more than you could do. I'll leave the interpretation to your imagination.


ARMADILLO

Plated ‘possum.
Ancient life form.
You jump up when you should run.
Couldn’t see that semi coming,
now lie baking in the sun.






THE SLUG

Parting the ivy leaves
I saw a slug.
Not pretty
but, definitely leaving its mark.


Fortunately there was no picture available to illustrate the last poem. I do think it has a heavy message though.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Complexities


We are rarely who we are seen to be. Why? Because the human being is complex. I believe we are a trifold being. That is to say we are composed of physical, mental, and spiritual components. We are seen in the physical by all who approach us, but behind our facade there resides the greater part of who we are, the mental and spiritual part of our being. Our teaching, parenting, religious teaching, education, and experience all keep the unrestricted child in check. I believe for those who have opted to address the spiritual aspect of being, the presence of God adds yet another dimension. Many things can affect our ability to control the utterly selfish part of our make-up, stress, drugs, and other people for example. But, we are who we choose to be. We really can't blame anyone for our plight. I tried to capture this philosophy in the following poem.


MR. ME AND MR. WHO

A rivulet of water ran down my mirror,
splitting my image in two.
I thought I could see them both in that scene,
Mr. Me, and Mr. Who.

Mr. Me, is on the outside,
he’s always looking in.
Mr. Who is on the inside
looking out at his old friend.

Mr. Me is aging,
he thinks of getting old.
Mr. Who is just a boy,
his age is still on hold.

Mr. Me is what you see
when you look my way.
Mr. Who is what I think,
sometimes what I say.

Mr. Me, and Mr. Who
have been there from the start.
One looking in, the other out,
they’ll never live apart.

If you see me on the street
and, if I should see you,
you’ll shake hands with Mr. Me,
but be seen by Mr. Who.